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Chapter 1. No reply





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Im sorry, oh, Im so sorry.

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Dont mentionit.

Im so clumsy. Your briefcase

No problem, really. Thats all right.

Is it all right when someone runs against you?

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My name is A.,  . Alanguage renewal specialist at the Brandenburg center, the German language, at your service.

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Z. Alanguage renewal specialist, the Moscow center. Russian.

You must be joking!

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What acoincidence! Ive been redeployed here because you have agood library and sources Ive studied everything we have. Do you mind if Ismoke?

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Idont think Iwill be ofgreat help,  ,  . You should meet Kaufman; he is one ofour best German specialists.

Oh, Ithink Iwill talk tohim anyway.   . . Would you like togo the pub nearby?

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So, what are your recent work achievements, dearest?

Infact, Ive received aletter My hypothesis is rejected. Its alittle bit sad. Discouraging.

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Totell you the truth, you didnt look disappointed.

You watchedme?

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Ofcourse Idid. Birds ofafeather Only ablind person wont notice you are different.

What?

Its hard toexplain, for real. It just seems you are different. Is that your literature that made you?

What are you talking about?

Oh, no, you were born different.

What are you

Ibet you think inRussian, dont you?

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Oh, you do. Ineed no other proof; your eyes tell everything.

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Why do you work inthe library?

I dont know.

But you like your work, dont you?

Iguess Ido.

What exactly?

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Theres apart ofme inmy work.

Is it your immortality?

Itis.

Im just like you. Ibegan as ascientist, but my peoples culture mesmerized me, and Icrossed the line. Im inthe German language and books, and theres no way back. Im lost as acitizen; Im one ofthe natives

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Imean no harm toany ofyou,  . Pull yourself together.

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Ijust want toknow who Iam. Ineed abreath ofliterature, artworks, all remnants ofthe past my ancestors had since Idevoured everything Icould there, at home, and they had nothing else. My interest could be explained from the scientific point ofview, so Ihad tobecome aspecialist. Ionly need the heritage ofthe mighty because it will be too long till some future poets lines or apicture ofan artist ofthe next generation; my life will not last that long. Do you getit?

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I will not tolerate e-e-et! Cheaters! Sharks!

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Peeeople?! Iwill show you peeeople!    .    ,  .

Er gentlemen will you calm down

Iwill show you geeeentlemen!

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Did they punch you? - .

Acouple ofhits wont drive me tothe grave, dearest, .

Its not alaughing matter.

Do you still think that Iam asavage?

Ithink you read minds pretty well.

Is it supposed tobe acompliment?

Idont wanna talk about it. Lets just get outta here.

As you wish. Where would you like togo?

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Will you show me your library?




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The library is closed, you know, and tomorrow

No, Imean your personal library.

Are you fishing for an invitation?

If you are clever enough toget it, why dont you invite me at once?

Why do you want tosee my library?

Iwant tounderstand who you are.

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He is lonely.

Idont understand you.

That man who got into the fight, hes so lonely and desperate.

Why?

Oh, its obvious. Is your society as perfect as you believe, with such weirdos who lose control because ofacouple ofcoins?

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Had they known their roots, languages, whatever, would they have been happier?

Thats agood question, dearest. Probably they wouldnt. Ican only speak for myself. Do you like Russian?

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I Idont know.

Do you know what love means?

Stop talking tome like that!

If you love alanguage, you feel like it can translate you into sounds and letters. You enjoy the taste. It does not imply it must be your native one. Just any ofthem, even the one you dont speak now.

Did it happen toyou?

Ja. Before Ilearned German, Ihad heard it, Ican say, degusted, and Ifell inlove with it precisely at that moment.

Where did you hearit?

It was my mothers birthday. Some guests were fond ofpoetry, and

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		W?hntest du etwa,
		Ich sollte das Leben hassen,
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What is this poem about?

The greatness ofthe world. The never-ending search against gods.

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There is one more Iwould like torecite.

Right now?

		La? rinnen der Tr?nen
		Vergeblichen Lauf,
		Es wecke die Klage
		Den Toten nichtauf

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Stopit.

		Das s??este Gl?ck

Please, stop right now.

		F?r die traurende Brust

We are being watched, keep silent!

		Nach der sch?nen Liebe

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Ihave too much time. Ihave nothing todo with my life.

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Will you meet me at the parade tomorrow?

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Z., did you sleep well?

Thank you, Kaufman, Idid.

Good sleep is good. Well need alot ofstrength today.

Is there something wrong?

Who knows. The natives, you know.

Are they planning aggression?

You cant expect them tobe so kind and postpone it because the people are celebrating.

Can Ibe ofany help?

Dont worry, my friend. Just watch and enjoy yourself.

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Du bist verloren.

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Z., come here. What can you see?

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You andme.

Who do you think we are?

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What do you want me tosay?

Have alook at those people andus. They have no idea how they think and exist, and their minds are only the colorless plasticine because we shape them. Do you likeit?

Ive never thought aboutit.

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We, the poor sculptors, are not similar. We are all predators, though.

Why?

Well talk about it next time, or we gonna be late.

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Youve been waiting so long,  , .

Welcome. You look worried.

Actually, Iam. Ive never seen aparade and any high-ranked person. Id really like tosee them.

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Tosee all these people, patriots, the best citizens ofthe country, the upper crust

What time isit?

Its time.

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Whats goingon?

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We wont enter here,  . .

What are you doing?!

You dont have your ID,  .,  . Well go tothe back entrance.

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You stole myID.

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How dare you.

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You can judge me, you can call the police or come and defend your government with agun,   . You can kill me with apencil that you use every day, or you can just say me goodbye, but it wont change athing. Iam not ascientist; Iam one ofthe natives whom you call terrorists and scums, and Iam perhaps just what you describe. Ididnt lie, though, when Itold you about the poetry and the language. Ido love my lost country and everything it produced, and Icherish every sound ofGerman, as much as Ihate every single tune ofthe common language. Its so awkward that Ican only say it toyou this way, but otherwise, you wont understand me. You probably will not byall means, but at least Ican try.

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It was kind ofyou.

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You will burn the books.

Iwont.

Icould see from the very first moment you were different. Isaw your picture and Ithought Icould manage and ask for your assistance, but we had too little time. They prepared me, and Ihad every opportunity available: money, transport, identities, but we had tobe careful. My mission was touse you and get the plan ofthe parade, and Iknew you and other specialists had it inyour cabinets. The library workers and other clerks always have such stuff. Iwas tosteal your ID, enter the library it was yesterday, Ihad toleave you although Ididnt want to and Igot the plan. Im not abig wig, really. My comrades got the job done. What awonderful spectacular!..

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You were supposed tofight byour side. Ishould have recruited you, can you imagine?

Iwanted you tostay with me inMoscow.

Iwont. Iwont.

Ijust wanted

Come with me. Joinus. We hide at one ofthe pubs not far from here. They will welcome you, they will listen tome and believe you.




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